What's going on?

I'm experiencing stress and feeling very down. It's a rare thing for me. There are several factors contributing to it, none of which would normally cause me any trouble.

Yesterday I wasn't hungry. That's weird too. I ate none-the-less, but not until later than usual. I am a classic emotional eater. This morning I didn't fancy breakfast. WTF!! It's usually the first thing I do. I meant to bring something to work for breakfast but I forgot, now I'm hungry.

We heard last Friday that a good friend of ours had committed suicide. It's knocked me for six. I think that's probably why everything else is getting to me. How I feel can be nothing on what his wife's going through. I'm telling myself to pull myself together. I've always been strong and have a bad habit of treating other people's weaknesses with contempt. I realise that it's natural to feel this emotion, but I really don't like it at all!

As for the diet - well - I didn't even go to WW yesterday. I was finding this emotion thing so difficult that I went to the pub with a friend for a couple of pints instead. Call me an alcoholic if you like, but it made me feel better for a while. Then last night I reorganised the desk at home, and cleaned!! Yeah cleaned. FFS - what is wrong with me?