What's going on?

I'm experiencing stress and feeling very down. It's a rare thing for me. There are several factors contributing to it, none of which would normally cause me any trouble.

Yesterday I wasn't hungry. That's weird too. I ate none-the-less, but not until later than usual. I am a classic emotional eater. This morning I didn't fancy breakfast. WTF!! It's usually the first thing I do. I meant to bring something to work for breakfast but I forgot, now I'm hungry.

We heard last Friday that a good friend of ours had committed suicide. It's knocked me for six. I think that's probably why everything else is getting to me. How I feel can be nothing on what his wife's going through. I'm telling myself to pull myself together. I've always been strong and have a bad habit of treating other people's weaknesses with contempt. I realise that it's natural to feel this emotion, but I really don't like it at all!

As for the diet - well - I didn't even go to WW yesterday. I was finding this emotion thing so difficult that I went to the pub with a friend for a couple of pints instead. Call me an alcoholic if you like, but it made me feel better for a while. Then last night I reorganised the desk at home, and cleaned!! Yeah cleaned. FFS - what is wrong with me?

I lost 3lbs!!

I'm feeling rather pleased with myself. It's getting harder to stick to healthy eating (or should I say got harder) 10 months in. My early enthusiasm and drive was all used up. But I did it. And I embraced hunger too. I know people say you don't have to be hungry to lose weight, and I'd agree with that, but at the same time, its actually good to allow yourself to experience hunger from time to time ... I hadn't for years before I started this diet in January!!

So Yay!!! Hopefully this is that start of me being back on a diet, and long may it continue :)

I've just realised ...

that to get to the "healthy" BMI of 25, I'd actually have to lose 8 stone in total rather than the planned 6. Seeing as I'm struggling to get past 3 stone at the moment, 8 stone seems rather overly ambitious!! Plus I can't imagine there'd be anything left of me at that weight! Well actually that's not true. 8 stone would take me to 10st 12 and I can actually remember being 10st 10 in my teens, although maybe I'm a little taller now? Maybe not. I'm leaving my target at 6 stone for now, but it's given me food for thought.

And I resisted the urge to eat more the other day. Hopefully I'm on track for a loss this week. :D

Hungry's good, right?

I'm just trying to beat it into my thick skull that being hungry is good. I've really tried to get back to being good on my diet and I've had some successes. A large bag of onion rings (the maize snacks) over the weekend wasn't one of them. But today I've had my cereal for breakfast, a big salad with Feta cheese(light) and 2 plums so far but I'm still hungry. So, do I attack my emergency Ryvita to avoid a crisis moment at the vending machine, or do I keep telling myself ... "hungry is good, hungry is good, hungry is good ..." ??

Jammy ...

After giving myself a hard time yesterday, I got on the scales at WW and I'd lost 2½ pounds!! Yay! Jammy git is a phrase that comes to mind. So that's even more reason for me to be good this week. So what did I do last night? Go to the pub straight from work, drink 3 pints of Moretti (Italian lager beer) and then go home and have an unplanned-ahead meal which ended up being cheese, bacon, onion & pepper omlette with 2 sausages on the side. Bah! I need to plan. Later today I'm gonna do a shop online and get some more good stuff in. I should consult some WW recipes first too.

Donna's Graph

My Weight Chart:

Why?

Why do I keep sabotaging my diet? Why can't I stop myself eating crisps and chocolate? Where did the motivation I had at the start of the year escape to? I lost 3 stone in just over 5 months and in the almost 5 months since, I've lost a further 2 pounds!!

If I'd managed to stick to 2 pounds a week loss, today I would have reached my 6 stone goal. But I guess that wasn't too realistic. What I need to do now is just fucking get on with it and stop allowing myself to fail .... ARrrrrrrghhh.

So today I walked to work. I'm not going to eat crisps or chocolate. I'm not going to eat just whatever I fancy. I'm on a diet. Dieting does work. Call it "lifestyle change" or whatever you like, but if I stick to the Core Plan I lose weight, its as simple as that. Plus, I need to get back to exercising. The stupid thing is that I do actually enjoy walking to work. My problem is that my brain has over the years programmed itself that I don't like exercise. I actually do enjoy exercise now though - I just have to keep reminding myself!!

Here starts the next 3 stone. Hassle me if you don't see that little car moving towards goal. Go on. I dare you. :D

The link ....

I forgot to put in yesterday

My Virtual Model

Before, now, goal ...

I came across this virtual me generator on another blog and needing some motivation had a go!! It certainly shows the weightloss and I'd say it was pretty acurate to how I feel I've changed so far. Best of all the third pic which would be the equivalent of me at 180 pounds, shows a lovely slim face. Consider me motivated!!

And then there was one?

Hello.

"Once there were 3 female scooterists, with 204 superfluous lbs between them. 2 updated the blog, one didn't get around to it. Now there are 2 of us. This is the year our corpulence ends."

Is it just me now?

Woop! Woop! Woop!

I'm down to a size 18 :D

A month or so ago I bought a couple of size 18 tops, but thought that it was a fluke. On Friday I bought 3 pairs of jeans - all size 18. Hurrah! Big fucking Hurrah!

At the end of last year I was getting too big for my size 22s. In fact, I ended up buying one pair of size 24 jeans. When I get down to a size 16, I think my work might be done. Size 16 is in my mind a normal size. I've never wanted to be skinny. Well never is probably a lie. We all have days when we wish we were skinny. But on the whole I've always preferred the curvy look. I have a waist and I have hips and I have a rather fine pair of tits, I wouldn't want to lose my curves.

So two fingers up to the fact that I didn't lose any weight last week (or the 6 or 8 weeks before that) - I've got down to a size 18 and I'm pretty fucking pleased with myself.

The fucking icing on a fucking perfect day.

This evening I had to go back to High School. My eldest started there this year. We went to meet the teachers. I was standing in a queue waiting to meet his teacher talking to another parent, she placed her hand gently on my belly and said, "Ah, are you pregnant?"

NO. FUCK OFF. I'VE LOST OVER 3 STONE. NOW PLEASE JUST FUCK OFF. RIGHT NOW.

Fuck, Shit and Bollocks.

Ok. So I have my period. I have a sore throat. But I wasn't in a bad mood. I set off for the early WW meet, cos you get a talk with that one, and I want an opportunity to boast about how I upped my exercise and lost weight this week. I went into the Corn Exchange. No meeting. I went around to the Town Hall (where they occasionally bump us to). No meeting. A security man found me wandering aimlessly and told me he thought the meeting was at the White Horse today. The White Horse closed down recently for refurbishment. I went anyway. On the front of the closed down White Horse there was a WW arrow pointing right, then another. When I got round to the back of the WH I found the WW leader directing people up a spiral staircase (fire exit). "Go careful - it's a bit of a health and safety hazard up there ..."

FFS. The building is in the midst of refurbishment. It was a building site. It was stuffy too. After complaining to anyone who would listen that "NO ONE HAD TOLD ME" that the meeting had been moved, I got to the front of the queue. "Half a pound on." They're having a fucking laugh. I'd lost 4 pounds on the scales at home!

I was too pissed off to stay for the motivational talk. I went to the travel agents and picked up a brochure George needs for his homework. I went to Sainsburys and bought some fruit. I got back on my bike (I'd even fucking cycled into town), pedalled off and the fucking chain fell off.

Bad day anyone?

Saved!!

It's that time of the month. I know - excuses, excuses. My resolve was weak and my tummy was hungry (not quite rumbling hungry, but not quite satisfied by the salad I had for lunch). So, I just headed off to the snack machine. It was in pieces. I was too embarassed to ask the man who was fixing it if I could get some chocolate or crisps so I just got my coffee and went back to my desk. No naughties for me today. Hurrah! (sort of)

At odds with my expectations ...

I lost ½ pound this week. After having said I was really going to go for it, I struggled bigtime this week. I was tempted by everything that passed before my eyes and much of it passed my lips. I did do the cycling though, so I guess I sort of took control!

I keep meaning to update my photos with a "3 stone lost" pic, but haven't gotten around to taking a pic in that awful top I started out in. But here's a pic of me looking healthy and happy :)

I might still have a double chin, but I look like I'm having a good time.

I've wasted a whole month

of potential weightloss. This week I was the same weight as 2 weeks ago at WW, which was a pound heavier than 2 weeks before that. I could say "at least I didn't put on", but I'm cross with myself. I cycled to work today and will continue to do so as long as the weather holds out. I don't have any more weekends away planned until end of Nov and no holidays planned until next summer. I therefore have no reason to not start shifting this weight again. I was doing so well. I was dead proud of myself. I can and will do it, no more messing!!

I didn't get to weigh in this week

we were in Wales visiting friends and family. I did go for a bike ride though. AND it inspired me to get my bike out. Today I rode my bike to work :D

Baguettes twice a day, pizza most nights ...

and a skinful of lager. I was on holiday. All in all, putting on a pound was less than I deserved!! I'm back on salads this week, and I'm enjoying every crunchy mouthful :D

I was good this week :)

I lost 4 pounds :D

That's about all I can say about it at the moment. I'm wrapped up in the trauma of yesterday's events which you can read about here should you wish.

Still kept it off

I know i havent blogged for over a week but ive discussed with Donna that instead of putting on 2lb then taking it off the following week that i would just keep the ticker the same unless something drastic happened. Im pleased to say that having been to two rallies in a row,and having a period ive have kept the 2lb off. This next week will prove im determined as im having to walk to work this week and also will be doing 1/2 hour on the exercise bike each night while waiting for my tea. Ive been having lots of health problems this past month and hopefully im over it all now, last week having an ear infection etc etc so im determined to get thinner.
Once again Donna well done to you, youve done so well

I got what I deserved!!

After doing so fantastically well for the first 6 months of my diet, I've been letting thing slip. So this week I got what I deserved. I put weight on. Only 1½ pounds, but I think it's been enough to give me a kick up the arse.

I started walking to work again this week, after having a lazy couple of weeks taking the scooter. The thing is, I actually really love walking to work. So why don't I do it?

I think the answer is that I've hated exercise so much over the years that I make whatever excuses I can to get out of it. When I actually make myself do it I love it. Wierd.

So yesterday, I went to look for a swimsuit for my holiday. Despite the fact that I'd put weight on, I was still feeling great about my overall weight loss, and I went into the changing rooms armed with 4 swimsuits (I'd already decided on one-pieces, even though I've worn 'tankinis' even at my fattest) in sizes 18-20. On the whole I was pretty pleased. My only problem with the swimsuits is getting enough support for my rather large bazookas. The swimsuit that looked the best on was a halterneck and halternecks put all the 'holding up' on the neck. I couldn't decide whether to buy it, so I put it on hold for today. I'm still not decided.

So that was in Debenhams, I then went on to Evans (which for any non-Brits reading is our fat shop). I picked out 2 swimsuits in there to try on. While I was looking I got chatting with the sales assistant. Another lady joined in and admitted she was trying to pluck up the courage to go swimming, she hadn't been for years. I think she picked up a size 22 or 24 swimsuit. She said that even if she does find the courage to go, she will wear shorts over the swimsuit. I just don't understand. I said to her that I couldn't see the point, I mean I know I'm fat, everyone can see I'm fat, if I were to wear a pair of shorts over my swimsuit, people would still be able to see I was fat, I'd just be a fat person in a swimsuit trying to cover it up. I'm not sure I helped.

I also picked up a few t-shirts in there. I just couldn't resist. They were funky. And I was feeling good about myself. A red one with hearts and a yellow one with lollipops accompanied me into the changing rooms. I picked up my usual size 22/24. The yellow one looked about right, but the red one looked huge, so I took a size 20 instead. The red size 20 was plenty big enough, but the yellow 22/24 was too small. I went to pick up a bigger size and mentioned to the same sales assistant that the sizes were inconsistent. She was wearing the yellow lollipop t-shirt herself and said hers was a 22/24 and I couldn't be any bigger than her. Try another size 22/24. I was thinking - yes, you may be wearing a 22/24, but sausage skin isn't a good look. I'm such a bitch. Anyway, she was right and next one fitted fine.

So that was my day.

This week I will be sticking to the diet and walking every day. I expect to have a good result to publish next week. :)

How do I manage it?

I stayed the same this week. It was a good result considering the amount of alcohol consumed this week!! Last Tuesday, after my victorious weigh in and reaching 3 stone, I left off work early to join Andy and his workmates who were having a BBQ in our back garden. I had some catching up to do, so I joined in rounds of Polish Cherry Vodka shots. That, along with lots of lager and I think I probably had a few WKDs too, wouldn't have done much for my diet! On Saturday we had a BBQ with some friends and the kids had friends round too. Again, I drank a fair few lagers and then when I'd had enough of lager, I went on to WKDs. George's friend brought me a box of chocolates. I handed them round to get rid of them, but once they were opened a few did make their way to my mouth.

So all in all I was a jammy bastard. Again.

Hurrah!! Hurrah!! Hurrah Hurrah Hurrah!!

I've just realised I'm over half way :D

Today at WW I'd lost 3½ pounds. I think I'd lost one pound last week, but I didn't go cos we were visiting kids in Southport. This got me past the 3 stone point - which was a HUGE milestone for me. Then when I just updated my ticker I realised that I'd lost more than I now have remaining to lose.

Fabulous.

And well done to Fi for keeping at it and not giving up. Just goes to show Fi that you can do it, so many hurrahs for you too XX

Ive finally lost

Yes, you read that right! Ive finally lost some weight on my new diet, 2lb to be exact, so Donna if you would like to do the honours.....im so pleased with myself!

Monday 9th July 2007

Today is the day or yesterday was the day rather of the start of my new diet. After an eventful two weeks, trip to Beet Sugar Rally in France, camping on the side of a road on a industrial estate...dont ask!!!!! To having laryngitus and finding out this morning at the doctors that ive got a mild form of asthma, apart from that im fine, honest!
Back to the diet, im on a calorie controlled diet now and Donna could you please change my start weight to 222 please. I bought some new scales on saturday but didnt open them until yesterday morning and found out that you dont get batteries with them so i had to go buy some last night. Hence a new starting weight, im feeling positive as i weigh 4lbs lighter than my last weigh in at grrrr fat club, who cares that its a different set of weighing scales, in my head I AM 4LBS lighter than my last weigh in. But to make it fair i want my start weight changing to match my scales at home and then next Monday morning there will be another weigh in and im feeling good about it.

Yoyo Yoyo Yoyo

Up and down and then up and up and then maybe down again and then up.....Donna can you remove my pound again please i put on last night!
But ive packed in Slimming World for good.
Its my birthday on Monday...25 again but only for the second time and im in France this weekend at the Beet Sugar Rally so im not holding out much hope for any weight loss but bollocks to it, im going to have a good time.
Tuesday i will be investing in some scales and find my starting weight again, then i will go back to my calories controlled diet online at www.weightlossresources.co.uk as i think i need to be controlled.

I tried to go swimming today ...

I really did. On my walk to work this morning I took a small detour to get some new goggles (the old ones are letting water in and are so scratched I can barely see out of them). The sports shop I detoured to was closed! So I walked up to JJB Sports - a shop that really is a last resort - I FUCKING HATE THAT STORE!!! JJB wasn't open yet. It was 9:15am. Fuckers. So I gave up and having lost time faffing about, got the bus to work.

At work I went on yell.com to see what other sports stuff shops still exist in Ipswich. Yell said that there was one in the Buttermarket centre.

So. Lunchtime. Where in the Buttermarket? I don't fucking know. I had a look round then gave up, resigned to the fact that I'd have to give JJB my business. On the way to JJB I saw a shoe shop with a sale. It had a magnetic effect on me. I bought the cutest pair of sandals for £27 reduced from £55.

Then to JJB. It hadn't improved. I queued behind 5 other people while one person served. There were many customer service assistants milling about the store, but as I've been informed previously ... they are not till trained. Then a man in a suit came over, who I thought may have been the manager. But no, he was the security guard. Then another white-shirted woman went behind the tills, asked CSA 1 which till she was using, put some change in both tills, picked up a clipboard, then walked away. Grrrrrrr ... I did my very very best to remain calm, at least on the outside. When I eventually paid for my goggles I realised the time, realised I didn't have enough time left to go swimming and thought (you can stay calm, you don't need to be pissed off about this) "I'll just have a nice walk back to work. I'll listen to some music and walk. This will make me feel better." So I started my walk back to work. Then it started to rain.

I was already sad. I think it was just a misunderstanding between Andy and I, but it resulted in me getting the cold shoulder and Andy not sleeping and then a text msg or two. I was (and still am) trying to not let it get to me. I continued on in the rain. Then I was stopped by the Allotments Officer (that's not her exact title, but you get the picture). "Oh Donna, I need to speak to you. I think your fella's fallen out with the Field Secretary. There's been an altercation about digging up pathways and I'm told that your fella was F'ing and blinding at the Field Sec." Ah, okay then. I'll ask him about it when he's speaking to me again then. At this point I considered turning back to go to the pub. But then I remembered that I'm 2 lbs off 3 stone now. I'd already wimped out of swimming, I'm out for a few beers with a friend tonight and I really really want to lose that 2lbs this week. So I bit my bottom lip and returned to work!

My evil yet cunning and tasty plan worked

Over the course of the weekend i had a kfc, takeaway pizza with garlic bread and chips and also a meal including yet more chips. I also had a couple of vodkas on saturday and low and behold, weigh in last night - i lost 1/2lb, it was nearly a 1lb but her scales are a bit wonky (i find when i laugh on them i weigh lighter) Now you tell me how that works - see previous blog for my conclusion and this proves it. My fat club leader then said i had lost weight cos i had eaten more - but this might just be me but does pizza, chips, kfc, vodka consist of a healthy diet on which to lose weight??????

I put on a pound

I consider myself quite lucky, cos I consumed a large quantity of alcohol. This week I will have a low alcohol week, and eat healthily. I would like to lose 3 pounds so that I will have lost 3 stone in 6 months. That is my short-term target. Longer term it would be fabulous to lose the next 3 stone in another 6 months, but I'm not sure that's realistic. Any thoughts?

Keep Going

I would blog more often if i had something more to report than staying the same or putting on Donna :o(

And i was bad, so so bad over the weekend but it was part of a cunning plan. Just to see if being bad would mean i would lose weight, i know it sounds silly but in previous weeks ive been bad and lost and then when im good, i stay the same and then when im gooder than a good thing i put on.......very strange indeed!

Two more weeks at fat club and if theres no weight loss im packing it in, someone suggested tesco online diet or i was on one called weight loss resources which i lost weight on aswell so just watch this space

Curry last night ... Ooops

It just jumped into my mouth ... honest!!

Who am I kidding? I met my old boss for a pint after work and he mentioned curry. Andy and a few others were coming to join us, so I suggested we get curry. I hadn't had a curry for over a month and damn, it was good.

Debs who is also doing WW, was good and had a vege chilli from the pub (our landlady makes everything low fat, healthy-eating styleee).

I needed that curry though. I will have put on weight this week though. BUT this morning I got into a pair of Next size 20 trousers that I have been trying to get into for weeks ... Hurrah!!!

Right. Now, Fi, Minxxy, I'm getting fed up of being the only person posting on here. I'm thinking about taking this site down and just blogging on my other blog about my diet. Please say if you want this to carry on.

Two words ...

Oh. Dear.

I was bad. I drank too much and ate unhealthy food. I got very drunk. I even got my tits out. The end result of this is that by my scales at home I've put 5 pounds on. Oh, and I think I may have got my photo in The Shed magazine.

I'm now dieting furiously before my weigh in on Tuesday. This is how not to do it.

Please don't let me fall off the wagon ...

I'm worried. At the weekend I bought some Walkers Sensations, a large packet - Caramelised Onion & Balsamic Vinegar flavour. Tuesday night I opened them. Last night I finished them. I don't know if Andy ate the middle section or whether I had them all. I don't want to start snacking on crisps every evening, or anytime of day for that matter. I knew they were there. I won't buy them again. But I'm worried that this is the start of my resolve weakening. I must find some more willpower.

Hurrah!!

I lost 4 pounds :D

I attribute my success this week to:

1. Sticking to the food part of the diet pretty much
2. Drinking less beer (only 4 pints over the whole week)
3. 3 hours digging weeding + a couple of hours walking.

I've got everything crossed for you for this week Fi!!

This week, so far, so good ...

Tuesday
BF: Rice Crispies
LCH: cold Chicken Risotto, banana
DNR: Gammon (Tesco Healthy Eating range), pineapple, potato wedges (home-made inc. spices and 2 teaspoons olive oil), Sugar Puffs (was there really any need?)

Wednesday
BF: Rice Crispies
LCH: Jacket potato (rather grey, from canteen), salad, small portion cheese, salad cream
DNR: Gammon ditto previous night
1 pint (of lovely lager)

Thursday
BF: Rice Crispies
LCH: Leftover Chicken Risotto (not much left & gone a bit manky, but I figured a dose of food poisoning could only help), Leftover Potato Wedges, Pear
DNR: Chicken Salad, 1 Cadbury's choc finger biscuit (minty, plain choc) (Andy and Dyl had Mint Viennetta spiked with dozens of them)

Friday
BF: Rice Crispies
LCH: Chicken Salad, a pear
DNR: carrot sticks, cucumber sticks, dip (made with low fat soft cheese), 2 slices pizza (not good, but it was a busy evening with no time for proper cooking)

Saturday
BF: Special K
LCH: Tuna Salad
DNR: Chilli (home made, Core Plan ingredients only) and brown rice
3 pints lager (oops - how did they get into my hands?)

Sunday
BF: Rice Crispies
LCH: Ham & cheese salad (only a little cheese - honest!!)
DNR: Lasagne (home made, mostly good, cept for the cheese and butter in the Cheese Sauce)

Monday
BF: Special K
LCH: cold Lasagne and salad, banana
DNR: chilli

Saturday I spent 3 hours down the lotty digging/weeding. I didn't quite manage a beer-free week, but I haven't done badly on that score. I'm anticipating a 2-3 lb loss this week. I just have to manage tonight without beer!!

This coming weekend we're off on a scooter rally, which will involve drinking lots of beer. Perhaps if I don't eat I'll be okay!!!

Can you remove my pound please Donna

I need my pound removing as im back to square one. Im giving SW til the end of the month and then im off to WW. Ive been good and then got weighed on Tuesday and was told i was a pound heavier - How does that work?
Even my fat club leader looked a bit shocked as on her recommendation i'd started to fill my sheets in again and when she looked at them they were fine.
Me thinks the SW diet may not be working for me as also i found out via my mummy this morning that one of her friends had left because after going for 3 years, yes you read right 3 YEARS, she hadnt even lost a stone. Shes now a member of WW but as she has only just joined i dont think she comment on any weight loss just yet.

All i can say is bugger bugger bollocks bugger again!!!!!!

Blooming Marvellous ...

After just having been reminded (in the comments, by Tony) exactly how much I ate last Tuesday, I'd just like to suggest that it's a fucking miracle I lost weight last week!!!

Not so bad after all ...

I lost ½ pound. I felt like I'd been very lucky. Then I heard from Fi that she'd been good all bar one day and had put a pound on and I felt even luckier. Then I re-read my last post and thought, actually if you ignored the alcohol (for a moment), the only bad things were the 2 meals on Tuesday. And, I skipped a couple of meals (which I know you're not really supposed to do, but it's a way of making up for any naughties). I don't snack between meals (well except from the occasions I missed my meals ... Ah! That's why you shouldn't skip meals ... ping ... the penny dropped).

Now, especially for you - this week I won't make you ignore the alcohol - cos I'm not gonna have any (except for Friday night - cos you have to have a night off).

So tell me please. If you'd eaten what I ate this week, would you consider that good, a bit bad, bad, or really bad. Yes, really - I want your opinion (that's assuming any one at all is reading).

And Fi, it sucks you didn't lose. But sometimes it does take 2 weeks to show, so like you said, keep it up til the end of the month, you might lose double this coming week!! And if you don't, convert over to WW with me. My friend Debs has just lost 4 lbs in 2 weeks, so it's not just me.

Could do better ...

It's weigh in day tomorrow and I'm wondering how I've done and how Fi's done this week. I feel like I haven't really been good enough - I've not done any really bad food things*, and I resisted pudding when all of the kids and Andy all had delicious puddings when we were staying in Southport Thursday night. I'm thinking about writing down what I've eaten starting tomorrow AND cutting down on the alcohol again. I've drunk LOADS this week.

Oh hell, why wait til tomorrow, I think I can probably remember what I had this week:

Tuesday - weigh in - only ½ pound on - hurrah!! Went to London for the day with the lads from work and drank a tonne and had two meals out. 1st meal I had Lasagne. 2nd meal Nachos. Could I have made worse choices? (you don't have to answer that)
Wednesday - back to work for a day - Rice Crispies for breakfast. Went home for salad for lunch, had homemade (good) Shepherd's pie (or Cottage Pie to be correct about it) for tea
Thurs - went to Southport - Rice Crispies for breakfast, roll for lunch (actually 2, tuna/mayo), and a banana. For dinner I had grilled Chicken with a Red Wine sauce and Dauphine potatoes (but I didn't eat them all). Plus I had several pints, but NO DESSERT :)
Fri - eat all u can breakfast, but I didn't, I showed restraint. The kids had a sandwich for lunch, I had a banana. For tea I had jacket potato with cottage cheese. Then I went out to the Northern Soul do I'd put on at the club and drank a skinful!
Sat - Rice Crispies, skipped lunch, had cucumber and (very bad but my absolute fave) McLelland's Seriously Strong Cheddar for afternoon snack. For tea we had Chicken Fajitas (pretty good, made by my fair hand) with lots of salad. And a bottle of wine (between us).
Sun - Rice Crispies, hours of gardening, chicken salad (with left-over refried beans), skipped tea, a skinful of beer (went to Jokers comedy club) then Ryvitas with cheese and marmite before bed.
Mon - Rice Crispies, Ham Salad, Chicken Risotto (good), Sugar Puffs for afters. No alcohol!!

So, basically, I've not done well this week. I resolve to do better.

* Well I didn't think I had, til I continued on to write down what I'd had.

Jammy git ...

That's what I am!!! I only put on ½ a pound!!!! It's great though, I'm encouraged by it and am looking forward to starting to lose more. I'm also very pleased that my friend Debs has joined me at WW, so I can give/receive support to/from her. It all helps. She's been going for 3 weeks now and lost 3lbs last week, 1lb this week, so I'm also encouraged by her doing well.

Roll on the summer :)

Not too bad

I got weighed last night and i stayed the same which i think was quite good as i had been away for the weekend. Im currently not feeling very well so i will just have to see how it goes this week.

Weigh in for 22/05/07

It wasnt good, i put my half pound back on and then didnt blog it.

I get weighed again tonight and then my fat club leader wants to see my sheets again. I will start to fill them in again from tomorrow so she can have a look at them. I was away at the weekend and didnt eat too much but drank a lot. I also did a lot of dancing which is why today i feel like i am 500 years old.

D-Day tomorrow ...

Well I'm back from my 2 week holiday in Canada/US and I absolutely stuffed myself. The diet went totally out the window. My home scales aren't showing much of a gain, so keep everything crossed for me for WW tomorrow. I won't be able to update, as I'm off on an all day drinking session with Andy and my buddies from work. Ooooops.


Here's a pic of the rather large waffle with custard and raspberries I had for breakfast one day ...

Im Lighter

I lost a whole half a pound, donna would be proud of me cos im proud of myself. I know im here alone but i thought i would keep the blog going while she's away fraternising with foreigners.

brb ...

I'm out of here. Two weeks in Canada and US. I'm hoping to be good, I'll report back in 2 weeks ... Yay!!!

Bad, bad, bad, badder than a bad thing!

No excuses really but im on one this week, sticking to the diet religiously and hopefully will have good news next for the weigh in, even my fat club leader looks at me in despair, heheheheheeee

Damn the beer!!

I did well this week. In the context of the blip I had on Sunday. I'd been doing so well too. Earlier in the week the scales were showing another huge loss of 4lbs. Then there was Sunday!!

At least 10 pints of lager, followed by a temporary loss of willpower leading on to a Sweet and Sour Chicken.

And guess what??? No weight loss for me this week. I did however also achieve no weight gain, so there's something to be happy about. I also had an excellent day. :D

I spoke to Minxxy on MSN too. She promises one day to update on here. I've no idea how much she's lost now. I have a feeling the lack of updates means not so good. She did say that she's drinking lots of water and exercising, it's just the actual diet that isn't going so well I think!!

And as for Fi .... come on Fi - explain yerself!!

Woo hoo ....

I lost 4 lbs :D

Good luck for tonight Fi.

I've stuck :D

I think I'm back on track for a good loss this week. After the talking to I gave myself last week, I haven't dared to drink too much and have stuck to the plan like a good thing sticking to a plan.

Plus yesterday I exercised for England. I took the boys swimming and did 22 lengths (which is what I used to do regularly last time I was on a get fit/healthy programme, although that time I kept up exercise longer than dieting, this time I've managed both, together, at the same time - hurrah!), then in the afternoon I went downt lotty and did some weeding and digging. Today the backs of my legs are stiff as a board so I took a leisurely stroll into work rather than a I-mean-business, head-down march.

I was a little disappointed at lunchtime when I went to buy new trousers. All my work trousers are too big, but I tried on the next size down and they were too small. Nevermind, another couple of weeks and I'll be in that size. Hurrah!

Fat pussy ...

Both Fi and I stayed the same this week. I'd made some bad food choices this weekend, we were away and I didn't pig out, but I didn't do as well as I could have done.

Friday night we went out for curry. I had Chicken Dansak (like I pretty much always do). I hadn't been out for curry for ages, so kind of felt I was entitled to it. I didn't eat any poppadoms, but I did share a portion of Onion Bhajis with Andy. I also drank a few (ahem) pints of lovely lager. I did dance tho.

Saturday we were visiting Andy's kids and I had a sandwich for lunch (it was a healthy eating one, but I'm not supposed to be eating bread on the Core Plan). And in the evening, we went to Chiquito. It was supposed to be a treat. We only had 2 quarters of Andy's kids so decided to splash out on a more expensive (than we usually go to) restaurant. But neither Andy nor I really enjoyed what we had. I had:

CHICKEN POBLANo QUESADILLA Chicken and chunky vegetables in a Mexican chilli-chocolate sauce with grated cheese, baked in a flour tortilla. Served with Mexican rice and a basket of salad tossed in a sweet onion dressing. £9.45

The chilli-chocolate sauce might have been appropriate for dessert, but for main course I was expecting it to be heavier on the chilli than the chocolate. Alas it was pretty much a syrup. The chicken was barely even there. And with the extreme sweetness of the aforementioned sauce, there was no need to make the salad intensely sweet also. 0/10 Chiquito.

Andy had the same sauce on his steak and didn't enjoy it. Ben and Katie both had burgers, which Katie said were good. I did scrape as much of the sauce out of mine as poss, but I reckon I still had a major sugar overload.

Then on Sunday, after eating moderately at the eat-all-u-like breakfast, I got hungry on the drive home and succumbed to 3 crispy strips from Kentucky Fried Chicken. At the time I convinced myself that it was ok cos I wasn't having chips with it. But it wasn't.

So that was that. I deserved to not lose any weight this week and I have given myself a stiff talking to about it.

In better news - a friend just sent me this link. It's a monster cat weighing in at 33 lbs, almost exactly equivalent to what I've lost now.

Poorly Fat Girl

Thats me, ive been poorly this week and didnt even make it to fat club so i dont know if ive lost or not.
But can i just say that Donna you have done absolutely fantastically and to be honest the longer it is til i see you, the thinner you will be and im so jealous, keep it up girl xxx

I think I'm doing quite well ...

A friend emailed today and asked how I'd gone on over the Easter period. This was my response:

I've done well. I didn't have any Easter eggs to contend with. We've been away for a few days, but I just try to eat a bit less of the normal things while we're away and choose salads whenever I can. I've very uncharacteristically had a weekend with no alcohol binge too, so I'm expecting a good result this week.

We were staying with Andy's mum and dad who have tearooms in Wales. Normally I binge on all the lovely cakes she has while we're there. They also have an ice cream counter (which the kids made FULL use of). I only gave in to half a scoop of ice cream, but I had just had a tattoo and needed to boost my sugar level back up (well that's the excuse I gave Dylan anyway when he tried to stop me!!)

How about you?

Phew!

I got weighed last night and considering i was drinking from Thursday last week until Sunday i only put a pound on so im quite happy about that. I had some junk food aswell and didnt really stick to the diet but im back on track now and i dont have a rally now for 3 week so even if i lose weight regularly and only put a pound on for each rally then i wont mind!

Not a disaster ...

but MUST DO BETTER!!!!

I stayed the same. I'm not gonna beat myself up over it though, I'll just make sure I do well again this week, and avoid the dreaded buffet ;o)

I fear the bubble is about to burst ...

I knew it was going to be difficult to maintain the 6 lb loss of last week, and within a couple of days of my weigh in last week, the scales had crept back up. So I've been furiously exercising and doing my best at eating only foods on the core plan inbetween the 3 eating out occasions of this week. The first of which was an Indian Buffet. I have just realised that buffets are evil. However good you think you are being, the opportunity to fill your plate as many times as you like is just too much of a temptation. The second was an Italian Buffet. Buffets are evil. I started with salad, but then had a couple of slices of pizza. Then I just had to try and little pasta. My plan was to dance it off at the ska do we were heading to. My plan failed. Along with my 7 companions we arrived to find the do had been cancelled. So no chance to dance it off! Yesterday we went to the same Italian Buffet (for my son's birthday). This time I had a plate of salad, followed by another plate of salad with ONE slice of pizza, followed by some fruit salad. I think that was pretty good.

This week I've spent about 5 hours digging/planting at the lotty, walked about 5 hours and I managed ½ an hour of Tae Bo last night (and I managed to keep up this time!!)

Today is weigh in. If I'm very very lucky I'll have stayed the same. I think I was dehydrated last week and this week I have 'the curse'. But I do hate to make excuses, I'll just have to try harder next week.

I resisted Easter Eggs, but did eat a few chocolate buttons whilst decorating my son's birthday cake. I put Andy's Easter Egg in the fridge so it was out of my sight and I took the leftover buttons and smarties round to Clive's along with the birthday cake. Thankfully the cake was cut after we left. I would not have been able to resist it. Although the kids are on board with my diet and wouldn't have let me have any anyway.

On The Move!

Its moving, my weight is moving, hoo bloody rah!

I got on the scales last night at fat club and was so chuffed, im pleased i didnt stay though cos it was the horrible woman who doesnt listen to what you say to her cos shes only interested in herself, boo hiss!

This is all i need to get me motivated and i need to lose at least a stone before the end of April and i will be so happy, the test facing me tho is Scarborough, i know i keep going on on about it but its hard at rallies not to eat crap and drink til your full, Donna knows what i mean!

But im gonna try my bestest....

Whoop Whoop Whoop!

That's a Whoop for each 2 lbs I lost this week. For those of you out there who are not maths genii, that's a six pound loss this week. :D

Andy will credit it to the fact that he emotionally blackmailed me into going to the allotment this weekend. Mark will credit it to the fact that he told me to drink 6 pints of lager last night so that I would be dehydrated today. I credit it to the cumulative effect of being good for 12 weeks now (alcohol doesn't count) and also that I made a conscious effort to reduce portion size this week.

Hurray for me!!

Good luck for tonight Fi xx

The Weekend

I was actually quite good at the weekend, i faltered slightly on Friday night by bringing a curry to daves, it was only a small one and didnt have a creamy sauce and we had it with rice. Then on saturday i faltered again by having a kfc and then salad for tea. And a proper Sunday dinner, so trust me this was very very good of me. Im dreading next weekend when its Scarborough, lots of tempting food and drink!
Good news though on the ankle front, its getting better, its not half as swollen today and ive been walking around on it. Just need to get me bolts tightened on the bike and i'll be on it. Daves gonna sort it out for me on Friday morning.
Im not sure if im looking forward to getting weighed tomorrow, im not feeling overly confident about any loss but im gonna get weighed and then go as i have to pack for the weekend.
Good luck to both of you girlies xx

Taaaa Daaaah!

Ive built up my exercise bike and boy was it hard work. I couldnt get the pedals on and im still missing some bolts (not loose screws) on the front where the stem joins the main body with the handle bars on so its a bit wobbly, i was losing my temper a bit with it last night so i may try again tonight to do it.
Ive been good on my diet aswell and still walking to work but my ankle is killing me, im off to the doctors on Monday if it still hurts, he'll probably wonder why it took me 4 weeks to go see him but then cheer himself up by pressing it and making me cry!

Lets Start From The Very Beginning...

Well after the feeble loss of half a pound last week, it looks like im still fat as the half pound was put back on this week, grrrrr

Ive decided that on this diet even if you deviate the slightest then you put weight on so this week im determined not to have any syns and not stray. Im at daves at the weekend and im taking him some shopping so i dont eat any bad things, the next test will be Easter at Scarborough rally. Although i was given an Easter egg last week by a sales rep at work and immediately gave it to my dad, which was very very good of me.

Today i have salad for dinner and will be having salad for tea, i also have strawberries which are supposedly a speed food...we'll see!!

My ankle is still sore and ive been walking for 4 days now and i intend to get the exercise bike out of the box tonight...krypton factor here we come!

Portion size ....

That's my focus for this week. Although on the Core Plan you don't have to weigh everything, you are supposed to stop eating when you are full (derr ... it's a pretty simple concept, but one that many of us fatties struggle with). Twice this week I've eaten to bursting point. On Sunday we had a roast (chicken) with all the trimmings (spuds and parsnips done in that low fat spray stuff), but I didn't have a small portion. No. I got the big plates out.

Then last night I had chilli (which was left over from Saturday), but I finished the lot, which could really have fed two people (Andy had already had his, I didn't deprive him). The trouble is, it was so nice. And it had chick peas in it and I love chilli with chick peas in, so I ate until I was in pain.

I lost one pound this week. When I weighed during the week I'd lost 4 and I felt cheated when the scales went back up. But I think I may have may answer. This week I will put less on my plate and I will listen when my body tells me it's full.

(If anyone is interested, I've updated my weight loss stats here. When I've lost 2 stone, I'll be adding a new photo too.)

Yes, a salad!!

I ate out twice on Friday. For lunch we went to Gusto for lunch. Gusto is great. It's £5.99 at lunch time and you serve yourself (as many times as you like) from lovely fresh salads, pasta and pizza. I had a tonne of salad and two small slices of pizza. Then in the evening I went to Prezzos. I took the car as I knew that if I drank I would not be able to control the amount I ate. Plus the ladies I was meeting had booked a restaurant in Woodbridge, so my options were limited to complex buses (i.e. more than one), expensive taxis, phoning my Dad or driving. I chose 'Pollo Siciliana' which came with either fries or 'gratinated potatoes' (that has to be an americanism if ever I heard one). When I ordered I was offered fries, potatoes or salad with my chicken. I chose salad (can you see my halo? can you?). When the plate arrived there was a tiny side salad which I was very disappointed about, but then they brought me a second plate of salad with it! I was really pleased about and it was really lovely. When I was telling Andy about it after, he said "You sound really excited. About a salad." (quizzical look). And yes I was. How times change :D

I also resisted starters and desserts of which my fellow diners indulged in.

I feel like a new person …

I’ve lost 22 pounds so far on this diet and already I feel like a new person. I have a spring in my step, my clothes feel different – mainly more comfortable, but also just different. I’ve had to consign some clothes to the too big pile – which also feels really great. I can put my shoes on without almost asphyxiating myself (all the fat bunches up and squashes the air out of your lungs when you’ve got a huge spare tyre).

And, people are starting to comment that they can see I’m losing weight.

Yesterday I read some of the blog of YP. She started her weight loss journey from about the same weight as me and she’s lost over 100 pounds. What inspired me most about her story is that she now runs. Yes runs!!!! I’ve never been able to run. At school sports day I was always last, at cross-country I didn’t even bother to run, I co-erced a couple of friends into walking at the back with me. YP’s now know as “one of the fast female group” in the running club she has joined and people there don’t even know that she was once a fatty. I just find that so inspiring. That you can go from being morbidly obese (I think that’s what my starting BMI said about me), to being a proper runner. YP has now been at her goal weight for a year. Huge congratulations to you!!!

I’ve never felt so positive that I will achieve my goal.

Ive got it!!!!!

Its currently sat in my hall, not yet built up. I also got my mum one and before going to bingo last night she got my dad to build it up for her, she likes it especially the seat cos she says it doesnt disappear up her arse like the old one i had years ago...

I will try and get mine built up before the weekend and let you know how i get on

Half a measley pound!

I got weighed last night and lost half a measley pound but at least as Donna the slimbo says, its in the right direction, thanks for the support mate xx
I must admit though dave cooked me a lovely low fat meal on friday night when i went down to his but then we ate out on saturday and sunday and i had 3 pints of lager so i suppose with no exercise at all it was lucky to lose the half pound that i did.
The ankle is healing very slowly probably due to the weight i put on it everyday e.g my body!
Im buying my exercise bike this week and as my car is in for mot on friday and im not expecting it to pass, i will be on foot for a few days and cant sneakily drive to work cos its too cold outside.
So my target to lose next week is 2lbs and im gonna do it......

Just one pound this week ...

but considering I fucked up last night and drank 3 pints (maybe even 4) and then troughed in to too much Shepherd's pie (even though it was made by me using only Core Plan ingredients). On the Core Plan, one is supposed to only eat until one is full, not until one is uncomfortable. Plus I had to go to bed early so that I didn't explode with rage all over Andy (down to the ongoing shitty situation with Sam). I layed in bed and thought, "Why o why Donna? You've done so well up until now." The truth is the situation with Sam is getting us all down. We wanted to go and drink to forget about it for a bit. But drink reduces willpower and I therefore ate too much. At the pub we talked briefly about Sam (and Ben) and then got on with having a nice time. But when we got back Andy spoke to Sam on MSN and it was all brought to the fore again. I criticized him for not asking the right questions, and I was torn between interfering and letting go, so I sent myself to bed to avoid a big argument. I'm blessed with the ability to go to sleep when my head hits the pillow (and I did even though I felt too full) and it was a beautiful release. Still, I guess I can take pride in the fact that being too full is now a rare occurence.

I've got back to walking after my fall last week, so this week my plan is to drink only small amounts (except for one night - I have to have a binge) and walk lots. I will continue to eat healthy food (I've not eaten crisps/chocolate/snacks for 10 weeks now.)

Good Luck Ladies ...

Good Luck for your weigh in tonight Minxxy. And for you tomorrow too Fi. How has the week been for you two?

I've done fine on the food, I'm really into the swing of healthy eating. I have had a little too much alcohol but that's par for the course.

My problem this week is that since falling over last Tuesday, I've only just got back to exercise. I walked to work today and will be walking home, but we've had a shit week with child-related trauma and we're heading straight to the pub after work for alcohol therapy. Mmmmmm .... Beer ...

3 pairs down ...

After falling over yesterday (which you can read about here) ... I had to put my work trousers out to wash last night. So this morning I decided to be a bit adventurous and see which of my varying sizes of clothes stashed in the wardrobe fitted. I was delighted to throw 2 more pairs of trousers into the "too big" pile, and put on a pair of trousers I haven't worn in more than a year. Hurray! Hurray! This dieting business is fun :D

New Start!

I got weighed at fat club last night and it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be but im now on a mission and in the style of Donna, here are the changes im going to make:

1. Walk everywhere
2. Buy an exercise bike and actually use it for exercise rather than a clothes horse (although they are excellent to be used like that)
3. Do not 'treat' myself when i think i have been good
4. Make an effort to do all the exercise dvds i have and actively look for beginners ones to do cos im not very active and a bit stiff!
5. Do not let dave lead me astray
6. Give myself a limit on drinking when on rallies and try to make every 2nd and 3rd drink a diet coke
7. Try to fit into the clothes i have instead of buying bigger sizes all the time
8. Keep myself busy in the evenings so i dont think about eating
9. Do my cross stitching again as i have stacks of it to do, this keeps me busy but its something to be done after ive done a few miles on the exercise bike
10. Keep away from crisps

So there you go, these are the things i need to do so i can have lost at least 2 stone by summer

Small change?

Each week when I get weighed at Weight Watchers, I'm amazed at the weight I'm losing. I've thought how jammy I am to lose it (and have had such comments made), but this morning when I was making the kids' sandwiches, I realised just how much my eating habits have changed.

1. Cheese
I've cut my hard cheese consumption right down to almost nothing (allowing the occasional small amount grated in a salad, just so that I don't suddenly go "I've not had cheese for 8 weeks!!" - and eat a whole block.

2. Bread
I've cut out sandwiches for lunch (and have salad instead) and any other bread other than the occasional slice of pizza (twice in 8 weeks). At the weekend I had a "Sub" for my brunch, but hastily changed my order from a Breakfast Sub to a Chicken Salad Sub when I saw the amount of fat on the meat.

3. Butter
Just not having any.

4. Eating between meals
Nothing apart from fruit/carrot/celery sticks.

5. Fruit
I'm making a concious effort to eat it. Not a big fan, but I'm allowed it and it stops me from picking at other stuff if I'm hungry between meals. I'm also treating myself to fucking expensive plums from M&S.

6. Water
I'm drinking more water, less coffee at work. At home I drink tea, but also more water, less beer.

So, I don't need to feel grateful for the weight I'm losing, or guilty that others aren't doing so well. I'm doing what I have to do to lose the weight. I've not even touched a crisp or chocolate for the duration of the diet so far (8½ weeks). I've been witnessed drinking halves instead of pints at the pub. I've been walking like a person with no car/bike/scooter/bus service. I'm doing it and I'm doing it well :D And most of all .... I think I can keep it up!!!!

Tae Bo ...

So ... Last night I finally got round to attempting the Tae Bo "Basic workout". Basic? My arse.

Me and the kids bounced around the lounge frantically for 10 minutes lashing out with legs and arms sort of in the same spirit as the instructor, then collapsed on the sofa and turned the stupid thing off. This morning I feel like I've got a dead leg.

I will give it some more tries tho. I just need to build up to it. I think I may have to do the instructional part a few more times first.

Im Back!

Im back and bigger than ever........and im not bothered, i enjoyed every little drinky poo and nibbles that i had while on holiday. My diet officially restarts on Wed 14th March so until then i have to ween myself off lovely lovely things. And Donna, i may have to redo my ticker thing to put more poundage on it to lose, but im going to do it properly this time and........im buying an exercise bike and plan to walk everywhere, apart from shopping cos vegetables are heavy!

Stepping it up a gear ...

I've decided it's time to step it up a gear. Last night I did the introduction part of the Tae Bo DVD's I bought a month or so ago. It looks like it might even be fun!! According to my scales at home I may have lost 3½ lbs this week. Weigh in is at either 10:30 or 12 today. I managed to get in before the boss today, so I reckon I could take an early lunch break without him thinking I'm taking the piss. When I get in at 9:30, it seems a bit rude to leave again at 10:20 to go to Wibbly Wobbly club.

So wish me luck ... on two counts ... 1. for my weigh in and 2. for when I undertake the Tae Bo "Basic" workout tonight!! (it looks anything but basic).

I think I might be doing rather well ...

Another 1½ lbs off this week and I'm feeling very good about it. I do feel bad for my diet buddies though, as it seems they're not finding it quite so easy.

I am really finding this time that I was "in the right place" to start a diet. Whenever I've dieted before it's been either because I have been pressured into it by others or that I just feel I probably should give it a go.

This time, I woke up on a Monday morning in January and just thought "Right. This is the time I'm going to do it. I'm ready." And it seems I was right.

The times I've tried and failed were many, but this time I AM DOING IT!!! HURRAY!!!

Im Still Fat But Have I Mentioned My Holiday?

I put on 2lbs this week and after talking to my leader at fat club she agrees it will be due to my injection just before Christmas cos i had actually lost 1/2 a stone before i had it, grrrrr!
Weve agreed that i will go on my holiday and enjoy myself and then get back on track again after, im not going to go mad and eat everything in sight........... as im fully aware the more i put on the more i have to lose, but i feel more confident now i am additive free!
And i still have time before summer to lose at least 2 stone so watch this space.

I will do more blogging before the end of the week and then catch up with you girls in a couple of weeks xx

Wierd ...

I've got a packet of tissues on my desk and they must be exactly the same colour as a packet of shortcake biscuits cos every time I catch them out of the corner of my eye, I think of shortcake biscuits. I'm putting the tissues in my drawer now ... "Willpower - Don't leave me now!!"

Hurray Today ...

I am indeed a very jammy git. I've managed another 2½ lbs off this week. I was worried I'd have put on when I actually counted how much I'd drunk this week (you don't want to know). But I have once again been a total angel on the food front and I've also managed quite a lot of walking. So yay for me and another yay for Minxxy who texted me to say she'd lost 3lbs this week.

No pressure Fi ;)

Weigh Today

Good morning girls, yes weigh in day is here, im not confident about any weight loss although i do feel thinner but then again i didnt realise how fat i was, ha ha! I will text my weight update to Donna this evening and will tune back in later today to see how she got on. I will look for a minxxy update tomorrow..........good luck girls!

Yay and yay again, im in!

This has talen me ages to get in but im there, ive no idea what ive done and i suspect that ive also created a scootergoth blogsite.......
Ive been moderately good food wise, plenty of fruit and veg and quorn and ryvitas and cereal.
Today i have homemade soup and all my veggies are chopped ready for steaming for tea tonight.
Ive got one week to go now until Tenerife and i think i will put weight on unless its too hot to eat, heres hoping!!

I have a period, but I still walked to work and used the stairs ... blimey days I am so pleased with myself.

I'm feeling a bit lonely on here ... Fi? Minxxy? Are you having problems converting to "New Blogger"? Or have you just desserted me?

Blimey Days I'm good ...

We’ve just been up to Southport for a couple of days visiting Andy’s kids. Normally this would be an excuse to come off the rails and eat out and eat bad things. This time however, IS DIFFERENT.

Our first eating out experience was Weds lunchtime. McD’s as usual, but FOR. THE. FIRST. TIME. EVER. I ordered a salad! The first week of my diet in January was the first time I’d ever ordered a salad in a restaurant, and I thought McD’s wouldn’t get the better of me. But guess what??

“We’ve run out of all of our salads.” WTF. So I ordered chicken strips and a bottle of water. I don’t know if it came with fries or whether the McTard just assumed I wanted it ‘as a meal’, but they gave me fries with it. I resisted. I had to move them away until the kids ate them for me, but I resisted.

Next challenge: A meal out at the Slug & Lettuce. I was tempted. George decided on Sicilian Chicken, which sounded lovely, but I (for the second time that day) ordered Chicken Caesar Salad. Why was I so disappointed when I got a plate of lettuce with a few pieces of cold chicken, 3 croutons and a load of not-very-enticing dressing? I was expecting a lovely munchy salad with lots of variety in it for £8.25, but on reflection, Chicken Caesar Salad is just lettuce, chicken, croutons and dressing so it was my stupid choice. G’s chicken was lovely though (I had 2 bites). Andy had the same as G and said it was lovely. There wasn’t a huge amount of it though, so I could probably have had it.

Next challenge: Dessert. I resisted (although I did try one bite each of George’s hot chocolate puddle pudding and Dylan’s sticky toffee pudding).

I have to admit that I did neck 3 pints of Amstel with my meal and then another couple back at the hotel.

Sunday morning. McDonalds again!! Surrounded by McBacon Rolls and Bacon/Sausage n Egg McMuffins I ordered porridge. Yes, porridge. “Would you like jam or syrup with that?” “No Thank You”. (I’m sure it will be delicious on it’s own.) I had a sachet of Splenda mixed in. It wasn’t too bad.

And on the journey home, not able to face another McD’s, we called at Tesco where I picked up a salad whilst the others had sandwiches.

I am very, very pleased with myself.

I really am a jammy git ...

3 drinking sessions and I lost 1½ pounds!!!

Stupid alcohol ...

The last few weeks I’ve proved that you can still enjoy a drink or two (and even the occasional curry) and lose weight. However, this week I’ve taken it too far. The demon alcohol got it’s grip on me and today when I go for my weigh in, I think I’ll find that 3 drinking sessions in a week IS NOT GOOD.

Keep everything crossed for me. Food-wise I’ve been an angel.

We'll still be us ...

"You know, I'm bloody proud of myself for turning my life around and I've never been at all ashamed or contemptous of my former heavier self. " (that was Diet girl btw, not me)

Diet girl answered a question I had been thinking about for a few days with that statement on her blog today.  I've now lost 12 lbs in 4 weeks and have a load more to go, but already there's contempt sneaking in for people-who-are-fat-but-don't-do-anything-about-it.  I guess I'm starting to worry that I will become some self-righteous horrible thing that thinks everyone should do what I have done (and I haven't even done it yet!)

I was relieved to hear that both she and some of her commenters agreed that they feel protective of their former (bigger) selves and proud of what they’d done rather than being loathsome of what they were.

Just thought I’d share that.

84/12 = 7

I’ve just calculated that I’m exactly 1 seventh of my way to my goal.  Should I be working?

Grrr and Grrr!

Week 4 and i have still stayed the same for my first Grrr, for my second Grrr - some tosser tried to steal my car last night and because of their brain dead status only managed to jimmy out the drivers and passenger side locks and still didnt get into the car resulting in me now not being able to get into my car.

Happy Waitangi Day ...

It’s weigh-in day today for me and Fi.  How did you get on Minxxy?

I’ve had a good week food-wise.  I had a beerfest Sat night, which I’m a bit concerned will seal my fate this week.  And today is Waitangi Day, which me and my (ex-)BT buddies celebrate (apparantly by filling our mouths with orange peel and pulling faces) along with the New Zealanders.

I’m going to try to eat less curry than usual and drink less beer, but it will be a challenge!!

Why Doesnt Very Light Laughing Cow Cheese Taste Like Cheese?

Im allowed to eat 6 of the buggers on my healthy A choice per day, tiny problem.........it doesnt taste of cheese, in fact it doesnt really taste like anything. It didnt even make my dry crispbread taste less dry. I dont think i will be bothering with it anymore, i might go back to Dairylea instead.

Fucking Hell .....

I just calculated my BMI on here.  Drum roll please …………………..
…………………………………………
It’s 43.  Does that mean I’m dead?

Now come on girls ...

If you need some motivation to get to your first ½stone ladies, just look at what I received in the post last week. Does it make you wanna go out and run? Get out those celery sticks and work out and I promise to replicate this little gem for anyone who can lose their 1st silver 7. I may even colour it in silver. You lucky people.

Its Moving!!!

Week 3 - I lost 1/2lb its not a lot but its a bit and i cant get back into my ticky thing to log it. So i have 61.5lbs to go

Reasons why I want to lose weight ...

I want to:

1. feel comfortable in my skin


2. feel comfortable great in my clothes


3. wear lingerie and feel good in it instead of embarassed


4. be able to turn heads again instead of having to have pink hair to do it


5. “Sparkle” (just generally)


6. go on whatever rides I wish to at theme parks without worrying about the barrier/seat-belt not fitting


7. (can’t mention that one on here)


8. be able to buy a pair of Levis


9. be able to run (with the help of a firm support bra)


10. sieze every opportunity to do fun, active stuff


11. regain my positive body image (I generally have the opposite to anorexia I think. I don't actually see how fat I am in the mirror - I look in the mirror and most of the time think - Yeah, that's fine.  But even that is slipping now.)


12. be able to have tattoos on body parts other than my arms (if I choose to) rather than being limited to parts that I won’t be embarassed about revealing.


13. start enjoying food again. (I have been eating food that I don't even particularly like. It wouldn't be so bad if I was enjoying the food that was making me fat. I just eat it out of habit.)


14. wear a swimsuit with pride

Monday Morning, So How Was The Weekend?

Morning girls, so how was your weekend? I was very good as it goes but kept myself busy so i didnt think about eating. I still dont hold out much hope for the weigh in this week though......i had a contraception injection just before Christmas and to be honest since ive had it i havent lost weight. Me thinks i wont bother with another one.

Durr thicko!

Me again, in my excitement i put down the wrong target weight, it should have been 154 but probably 180 is more managable

Scootergirls on the run (from the pounds) in '07

Fiona

I supose i should give away some highly top secret information about me:

Age - 36
Height - 5ft 8inches
Starting weight - 216lbs (you can work out the stonage yourself)
Target weight - 180 (see above)
Length of time to target - as soon as bloody possible cos none of my clothes fit me!
Fat club - Slimming World and its hard work, my fat seems quite happy living on my body

Scootergirls on the run (from the pounds) in '07

Scootergirls on the run (from the pounds) in '07


Fiona

Week 1 - stayed the same grrrr
Week 2 - stayed the same grrrrrrrrr

Donna - 23/1/07

 

Donna - week 2

2 more lbs down .... takes me to a soaring 7 lb loss

Got my 1st silver 7 at WW today.

Target for this week: walk more. Specifically - walk to work whenever possible. I started by walking back to work from town instead of getting the bus.

Noteable: Easier tying shoelaces after taking shoes off for weigh-in.

Donna

Starting weight: 18st 12 / 264 lbs (120 kg) - 9 Jan 07
Starting BMI: 43 !!!!
Current BMI: 35.3
Target weight: 12st 12 / 180 lbs (81½ kg)
Current weight: 15st 9 / 219 lbs (99.3 kg) - 30 Oct 07
Current loss: 45 lbs (20.4 kg) (44 wks)
Consecutive weeks loss: 2
Avg lbs/week: 1
Age: 42
Height: 5' 5½"
Target loss: 6 stone over 18 months
1st goal (WW) - 10% of starting weight: 26½ lbs - achieved 3 apr 07 :D
2nd goal - under 100kg - achieved 7 Aug 07 :D



At my fattest (Christmas Day 2006):


16 lbs down (26/2/07)



I still look fucking hideous but slightly less fat I guess. What was I on when I thought that top looked okay in the shop? I only bought it a few days before I wore it the first time, so it wasn't as if I looked any different when I tried it on!!

29 lbs down (5/4/07) ... it was definitely a bad outfit and sitting just shows the fat roll beautifully. I'm gonna try and take a nice one to post tomorrow or Sat when I get dressed up to go out ... But. you can see that I'm shrinking and that's the whole point.

Why did I do it?

Originally posted on http://crashndonna.blogspot.com:

To myself. I did it to myself. I abused my body with food until I reached the weight I am now, which is a weight that they make documentaries about people who have reached that weight.

Today I attended a Weight Watchers meeting. Sitting in there and seeing peoples ‘before’ and ‘after’ photos, a wave of emotion swept over me. Had I been at home I’d have wept, but I wasn’t, so I fought the tears back and pulled myself together.

It’s been an issue all of my life. As a child I was told I was fat. I wasn’t particularly, but I was chubby. As a teenager I was told I looked like a barrel and danced like one. I wasn’t/didn’t – I was just in a world where you had to be stick thin (ballet classes, amateur dramatics, disco dancing, dance school etc). As a teenager I did everything I could to be thin. I went to a hospital dietitian who started me on 1500 calories a day, then reduced it to 1400, then 1200, 1000 and when he suggested 800 I stopped going. I just wasn’t meant to be thin.


17 yr old me (in blue)


17 yr old me

When I stopped dancing at 19, the weight gradually crept on. In 1994/5 I joined Weight Watchers for the first time. I wanted to conceive and it wasn’t happening. I went with my mum. We both did very well. I lost 3½ stone and continued to attend meetings throughout my pregnancy. I breast-fed George and the pregnancy weight fell off.

But then it crept back on. And some more. My weight became an issue in my marriage, and was one of the issues that ended it I believe. I just wasn’t prepared to lose weight because someone else wanted me to. It may well have been that he wanted me to lose weight for all the right reasons, but it just wasn’t something I was willing to agree to. We separated, I lost some weight (as you do when you need some cock (sorry kids – don’t read that bit)). I met Andy as I was on my way from size 20 to size 16 (I was almost there).

2001 with my buddy Nicki

But then again, it crept back on. I’m now 2 stone heavier than I’ve ever been. Most of the time I am genuinely not-really-that-bothered about my weight. I’m confident and out-going and I’m told that people don’t really think of me as fat, they just think of me as me. But it has got out of control. Really out of control. I stopped dieting because I figured that dieting makes it worse. You lose weight, put it all back on, and then some. So I threw away the diet books. Stopped getting on the scales. But do you know what? That didn’t work.

I sat in that meeting today and just wanted to weep about what I’d done to myself. So. This is the year. I’m gonna get that fantastic figure (to go with my fantastic breasts and personality;o)). I’m going to lose 6 stone. The WW leader lost 4½ stone in 9 months. If she did it, I can. I’m going to take pride in doing this well. I’m going to treat it like a test that I must achieve 100% in. I’m going to post a before picture to shame myself into not going back.

This Christmas ... yes, I know, it's supposed to be hideous. I'd have found a better one if I was trying to impress ...

This is the year I’m going to stop killing myself. You heard it here. I’m going to remind myself each day of the reasons I want to lose weight, and the reasons I don’t want to abuse my body in this way and all of the things that losing the weight will enable me to do. Starting with the latter:

1. Go on whatever rides I wish to at theme parks without worrying about the barrier/seat-belt not fitting
2. Wear a swimsuit with pride
3. Be able to run (with the help of a firm support bra)
4. Wear lingerie and feel good in it instead of embarassed
5. Be able to turn heads again instead of having to have pink hair to do it
6. Sparkle (just generally)
7. (can’t mention that one on here)

This list is to be continued … and the photos will follow. I’m going to update this post and refer back to it. I have no will power, so need every tool in the box to help me. I know all the theory, I just have to find it in me to actually do it instead of thinking that its something that other people do. Wish me luck, encourage me. Don’t lecture me though. And a final warning: If I give up – don’t stand between me and the profiteroles – especially if I have a knife in my hand.

So ... the reasons why I must lose weight

1. I've crept up from 20 past 22 and bought my first pair of size 24 trousers (I'm embarassed to publish this - but I'm hoping the shame will motivate me to not go back)

2. I feel like my skin is too tight

3. I can't achieve the (ahem) positions I'd like to (moving swiftly on ...)

4. I'm missing out on doing active stuff with my kids

5. My belt digs in my waist

6. I can feel the fat squeezing over my bra, under my arms

7. It's an effort to do anything pretty much

8. I'm starting to lose my positive body image (yes, I'm still pretty much okay in my head, but I'm starting to see reality. See - I have the opposite to anorexia I think. I don't actually see how fat I am in the mirror - I look in the mirror and most of the time think - Yeah, that's fine.)

9. I'm having my first tattoo this weekend, and I'm having it on my forearm. I'll be honest that it's mainly because I'm embarassed about getting any other body part out for fear of revolting the tattooist. But I'm telling myself and everyone else that I'm having it there cos I saw someone with one there and it looked good (which is also true).

10. I'm eating food that I don't even particularly like. It wouldn't be so bad if I was enjoying the food that was making me fat. I just eat it out of habit.

More to come. Still more.